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My Goals Are Bigger Than Body Goals

July 27, 2017

I refuse to apologise for the fact that weight loss is not my top priority.
It used to be but it never made me happy so it dropped lower and lower on my priority list.
Now I would say it’s not even on the list.
My health, now that IS a priority to me. Anyone with chronic pain or chronic illness will always have that as a top priority but my way of looking after my health will be different to yours.

Here’s the difference:
When I had an obstructed bowel, eating fruit and vegetables is really bad for your bowel. Eating brown carbs is bad for your bowel. So I ate white pasta with cheese and ham for two weeks. AND I HATED IT. All I wanted was vegetables.

But if weight loss was my priority, I would have ignored the doctor’s advice and probably obstructed my bowel further, moving my state from a partial obstructed bowel to a complete one and therefore needed another surgery.

Because health was my priority, I did what I was told and was patient and knew that it would pass but I needed to follow the doctor’s orders.

I know in this world, not having weight loss as a top priority is unusual. Especially when you are fat. But I refuse to apologise for it because I KNOW MY BODY BETTER THAN YOU.

I know what works for me and I know where my time and energy is better placed than you do.

I have bigger, better and more important things to do than step on a scale, count calories and go to weight watchers meetings.

So you can keep using my weight as a reason to think you are better than me and instead, I’m going to focus on me. I’m going to keep ACTUALLY bettering myself. #ScarredNotScared